Change

It has been 42 days since I have not worked. I am bored, frustrated somewhat depressed and are having anxiety attacks that do not let me sleep. Everyday during the week I get up around 8:00 a.m. make my coffee get on the computer and do job searching for around 2-3 hours.
I have had some phone calls back and some interviews, no job yet. It makes you feel like a loser and not worth a whole lot that you cannot contribute to your family's needs the way you would want. Jamie, being the rock of my life is so supportive and helpful getting me through this, he does have to put up with my spoiled butt. Yes, I have finally admitted it, I am spoiled.

I have decided after watching Jamie do his college classes that I would enroll and really do what I want and feel that I need to do with my life. I enrolled through Kaplan online services, they are an accredited school. I will be getting my associates degree in Human Services. I have not yet decided what area of Human Services that I will do, there are so many things I have thought about: Drug Rehab, counselor for married couples having problems, grief counselor, the list goes on and on.

I am so excited that I am doing it, elated actually. I wish I would have done it earlier but I really felt like I was stuck at a job, I was making $18.00 an hour. I mean really, who could turn that down? (It makes it very difficult to find a job these days that I have to make to pay the bills, It doesn't have to be $18.00 closer to $14.00 & part time is out of the question.)

I finally figured out that Tom my old boss was using me and paying me that much to keep me there because he didn't want to do any work on his own. It's not that he even liked me as a person, apparently I am too blunt, I wear my feelings on my sleeve, If I don't like something I will say it. Long story with him which I will write about, maybe someday.

I have realized I am much happier, healthier and meant for something so much bigger.
I was told he was in hell without me there and regrets getting rid of me, which was his daughters idea. Karma sucks!

Enough about me.

Jamie is doing classes in Business Management geared towards the Human Resources end of it. He is getting a 4.0 right now and will not accept anything below that. Jamie is so smart & intelligent that I know he will be great at whatever he does.

Tyler is Tyler, he moved about a couple of months ago and is finally working. YEA!
He still hasn't heard when he gets deployed but has been doing a lot of live training action. This weekend he goes to Camp Ripley to play with Grenades and to take is Military driving test, he has to take that because he will be ambulance driver over in Afghani. Nice big X on the top of his truck :(

I am so looking forward to Brandi's wedding!! I love when family is together. Huh? J.K.

Life is great!

Love ya all

Jode