Why does my stepson come over here with no extra clothes? Why does he wear shoes that are broken down in the back? (that NEVER would've flown at our house) But the main question is:
Why doesn't his Mother care about how he looks when he goes out in public. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't expect him to be dressed in Tommy Hilfiger and crap, but why does he come to our house in a pair of royal blue (EEWWW) sweatpants and a yellow and navy blue shirt, with black socks and shoes that are 3x too big, and worn down in the back. I'm sorry but that disgusts me. Now you have to remember, his Mother has NO sense of style, and by that I do not mean "whats IN STYLE RIGHT NOW", but this is a woman who wears a maroon shirt and red shorts!! THAT DOES NOT MATCH. Although Dave since you and Ron are colored blind, it may. And I am venting on here tonight because I don't want to vent to Bruce all the time, I think he gets offended because he once loved this woman; which is so fine with me but this is one of the reasons he left her: she had no respect for herself. Ya know, we all need to have respect for ourselves to get through this thing we call life, and I am very happy that I have LIFE.
Just think, we are all here for a reason; why did we end up as siblings-- why wasn't Bryan Quick one of our Brothers instead of Dave? Or Kersten instead of me. Or Jamie instead of Jodi.
And then there is the Niece and Nephew thing for me since I have no children of my own.
Before I met Bruce, I was very good at being an Auntie to my Nieces and Nephews... But since I have been married I feel like I have really not been as attentive as I was; ESPECIALLY to the kids in Colorado, and of course now Joey--- whom I only met once, when he was only 6-7 mos. old.
Where do I go from here? I don't have any children of my own. I love my stepson dearly. I love my husband more than I ever knew you could love somebody.
I am going to end this really wierd probably. Bruce and I could not get pregnant. I know that he is/was fertile at one time because he has Brent. Some of you know this and some of you don't, but I feel I need to put this out here: I have been pregnant before.
It just didn't work out. Thats all. My point is, I guess God decides whats going to happen and I'm just sorry it didn't work out for me at the time. Whether it was my choice or His.
So yeah, I know this is long, but Bruce and Brent are out shopping for shoes (imagine that) but they will be home soon. I love all of you guys.
Sissy Jeanie
3 comments:
What a blessing you have for a step son. He didn't ask for ambercrombie, nike, levi, lee, girbaud, jordache, juicy, etc... It is so cool that he can just hang and be comfortable with himself without putting a name on it. I know things kids do are sometimes annoying, and I know the x thing better than most, (so does Jodi), the unfortunate thing is we can't control what goes on in their houses thank god. Live and let live.
Honestly, if you buy him anything keep it at your house, that way you have control over what he looks like when he is out and about with you guys. Don't allow yourself to feel controled by someone else, take control.
Jean,
You are still a great aunt. I try and e-mail to keep contact... I do not want to lose contact, I have been through enough in the past year. I being one of your nieces understand that being married means giving time to your husband and your stepson. I love you.
Brandi
Jean,
thanks for being vulnerable. I never knew about your pregnancy and am sorry it didn't work out for you. My kids love you and think you are great. I ask myself the same "where do I go from here?" question a lot.
Dave
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